New Me, New Life, New Blog

I can't tell you the last time that I blogged, but I have had so many thoughts dancing through my head that I felt the need to sort through them. I am feeling very inspired lately, so I am going to see if writing my thoughts will help me with my creative writing process.

This weekend I attended my first music festival, Delfest. I was hesitant to go at first because I knew little about bluegrass music. I had rocked out to Old Crow enough times on TK's coffee table, but that was the extent of my knowledge. I attended the festival because I wanted to spend time with my roommates because it gets so much harder to see your friends after college.

Attending Del was definitely a euphoric experience that keeps you high for a few days after. The high is inevitably going to fade, but the lessons will remain as long as I keep practicing my teachings. I can't pin point what exactly made me so unbelievably happy, but I just know that when I think about the weekend, my breath leaves me.

Being around people that are so content with their lives, so carefree and accepting, it is a sublime feeling that is so hard to achieve. It was the inertia of the entire concert; the cascading mountains, the unpredictable weather, good conversations and music that made you explode with energy and delight.

It was truly beautiful, and the beauty will always remain inside me just knowing that there is another life out there, outside of my little box.

I am now in the real world, the working world. It makes me a little sad, because I have had a taste of the passionate life. In my world, people judge you for the car you drive, and the clothes you wear, the music you like and the job you possess. What keeps me going in this world is that I know I have the ability to change some things of it, to cast a light upon those that cannot see past the material world. Everything is different now, and unlike a tragic event that shapes your life for a while, I will not let it fade.

I struggled to understand the world I lived in. I questioned why things seemed to come easily for others, while I struggled to fit it. Now I realize that I am an alien to this world, and all of my beliefs and feelings are shared by another world, one that is obtainable but unrealistic.

I feel so much love surging through me, and no one can take that away from me. I have never let anyone ruin my mood because I strongly believe that you dictate the future of your day. Through positive thoughts, you will be happy... to dwell on the negative, you are inevitably dooming your day.

What lies for me in the future? I am not sure, I know it will be a life surrounded by rich literature,  unexplained moments of bliss, and a hunger for learning.

If the world could see you as I do,

Maybe there would be room for me and you

Underneath a sky of lavender blue,

And beneath the sun that’s shining through…